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𝑵𝒆𝒉𝒎𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝑷𝒐𝒗:
Mr Yuvraj Mehra dropped me home today. I feel safe with him. I don't know why. He feels like warmth, which is stressfull. Because that's not the reason why I'm here. I need to find many thing's. My sister. I've never met her ever since I grown up. Yuvraj is distracting me. Indeed, it's a handsome distraction. But I need to focus on myself now.
I saw Akansh today. The moment he saw me, he stood there for a moment. Then he walked towards me. I felt numb. I wasn't able to process anything.
'Nehmat! What a surprise! What are you doing here?' he asked. I didn't reply. I felt like my voice has broken down. He came closer this time and I immediately step back. I don't want him near me. I don't feel good. I feel disgusting.
'Why are you moving back Nehmat? And why did you just randomly disappeared? I tried calling you many times.' he continues. 'Even Sarah came to your doorstep, but you weren't there.' For my safety Mr Mehra offered me a house. Because I wanted to leave that city so I accepted there offer.
I didn't reply this time too. So he came near me and tried to touch my hand. Suddenly Mr Mehra showed up. He shaked hands with Akansh. Maybe he hurted his hand too. Than he treated my wound and dropped me home. While in the car I had this flashback.
'Sarah?' 'Akansh?' I murmured. ' What are you both doing here outside the hotel?' I said. ' Can't you see? Or are you too dumb to understand this?' he said aggressively and started laughing.
' But why? After all the things I did for you?' I shouted this time. ' I never liked to go to clubs and parties, neither do I loved wearing short dresses. But I did. Just for you. I did everything you told me to do. Keeping my opinions aside I always obey you. Then why??' I shouted with tears in my eyes.
' You know what I wanted from you, that you didn't have me. Physical relations. We are adults now I also have some needs. And you always pushed me away whenever I tried to do such things. That means you never loved me!' he said in return.
' How can you say I didn't loved you? You were the person I experienced my first time with. You were the first boy I ever talked to. The first one who ever touched me, hugged me. The first one I loved and cared about. The first one who showed me what feeling loved feels like. And you were saying I never loved you just because I never gave you the permission to do such things?' I said while sobbing.'I gave you my heart. Wasn't that enough?' I continued. 'No it wasn't!' he said in return.
Flashback ended.
A tear was about to fell down fromy eyes. But I immediately wipped it off. He doesn't deserve my tears. Why should I cry for a boy who lusted over me? His lust overpowered the love he had for me. That's my biggest fear -- being lusted over when you thought it was love, giving your heart, believing in something real only to realise you're just a desire and not a devotion!
When all this happened, I stared oversleeping, cancelling plans, pushing people away, ignoring calls and not having energy to do anything. But now, as I have started improving, trying to start my life again, he showed up again.
I reached home and changed into my comfy night suit. I'm not able to sleep today. I kept staring at the window while lying in my bed. Today was a full moon. And after sometime, I smelled the fragrance of rain. I love it. I immediately got up and stand near the window to glance the view of raining. That's when I saw someone on my doorstep. A man who was tall and strong. I got scared for a moment. But than I saw Mr Mehra's car outside. Maybe it was him. So I ran immediately to my door.
I opened it and there he was. He was not wet with rain but still he was shivering so much. Maybe he is feeling cold. His eyes were closed. I tried to wake him up but he didn't even moved. So I tried to carry him. I took his hand and put it on my shoulder to try to make him walk. My other hand was on his back. I tried to move but he was so heavy. But I somehow managed to bring him inside.
I put his head on my lap and tried to wake him up again. ' Wake up. Mr Mehra? Mr Mehra?' I shouted this time. He did move but didn't opened his eyes. My attention went to how handsome and dangerous he was looking at the same time. I was admiring him. He has a cute mole near his nose.
I was staring at him and suddenly he opened his eyes. I immediately looked away. I can feel him blushing. He didn't say a word. He is staring at me now. He tried to get up and sit. I helped him.
He took my hand and placed it to his chest, than whispered, ' Don't leave me this time. I won't be able to resist this again.' Before I can say anything he fell asleep. I took his phone out from his pocket. And tried to call Raaj. After few call's he finally picked up just to say. 'Wrong Number.' These two brother's are so unpredictable.
I don't know what to do. So I put a pillow behind his head and slept in the living room.
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